ABOUT ME
• crazy but not wild
• Devoted
• Loved
• I'm addicted to my bunshin, music, writing, my bunshin, bleach, pictures, did i say my bunshin yet?
• I love to dance... i move.
• I'm fascinated with anime
• I love rainy Monday mornings
• I dream of a simple life
• I love traveling
• I stay home simply to spend time with my family
• I recently got bitten by the computer bug
• I love theater
• I have deep affection for dogs
• I love drawing but drawing seems to have developed a mild aversion towards me
• If given a chance, I'd go to VIENNA!
• I love my bunshin
• I love hugging
• When deeply saddened or undeniably happy, i write.
• my life is an unwritten book filled with wonderful adventures
contact >> ♥ miaka ♥
Friday, January 22, 2010
who do i turn to if the person who can make me stop crying is the person who makes me cry?
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Friday, January 15, 2010
Rants of an Absentee Mother
I never wanted to be the mother who isn't there all the time.
But I am.
I never wanted to lose those precious moments of being with my sons..
But I do.
I never wanted to weep endlessly about missing the pieces of my life..
But I cry.
I am missing. I am incomplete. I am no one.
TO the people who matter to me I am no one.
I am only a pawn to be moved at the most convenient time. No feelings. Always empty. Always taken advantage of.
Never had anyone thought about how I felt. Or given slight attention to how I would react. It was just assumed that I would agree.
I was never asked. I was never considered. I was just THERE.
I never felt this way until now. And it eats me up inside like nothing else could.
My chest is heavy. My heart is bruised and battered. And no one can ever understand. Not the people who I thought would. Not anyone.
I am just the mom.
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Thursday, January 14, 2010
Song : Gravity
Artist : Sara Bareilles
Album : Careful Confessions
Official Site : http://www.sarabareilles.com/Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I’ll still feel you here ’til the moment I’m gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.
[CHORUS]
Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.
You loved me ’cause I’m fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
[CHORUS]
Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you’re everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you’re neither friend nor foe though I can’t seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down
Your keeping me down,
Your on to me, your on to me and all over
Something always brings me back to you
It never takes to long…
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Friday, January 08, 2010
BATTLING
Fighting a battle within me.
I want to let go. I want to move on. I want to just be happy.
Why can't I?
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